Wilderness

Loving you
was akin
to hiking
my way
through
the pinnacles
of
jekyll & hyde
as you
cycled
up and down
the
highs and lows.

What you see
in me
intersects
with the wilderness
that lies within you.

I don't doubt
my feelings
for you
however
it's amusing
to witness you
chasing butterflies.

Truth be told
you trigger
my insanity
even though
I find peace
within
myself
at the flick
of a switch.

I don't want to let go
but self preservation
takes
precedence
over inner sufferance.

I love you
however
there's only so much
self sacrifice
that one
can perform
before depletion
enters
the room
like an elephant
and I realise that
I’m stuck
in the
wilderness
of you.