smile

i put on a pretend smile    
       to hide from you my pain    
 what iv'e done for "boy" insane                                  
the scruf of his chin between my legs    
haunting visions vivid in my head    
 you little faggot junkie  
let me take you to bed    
       so sick so vile    
why cant you rid yourself of the "monkey"    
how hard it is to smile  
 with no hint of shame  
how easy to live in denial    
heroin,("downtown") to blame    
 or maybe just me instead    
still the fiend wants more    
nothing else to be said...    
 time to feed this junkie whore    
have to give him what he craves   
so i can fake a smile
down here god never saves
so spit your faggot taunts
death and heroin my only wants