Mind's ablank

So confused, words coming are shades of blues, your tone of voice, the way you choose your vocabulary ,your words, as if they were abused.

What has happened, has something bad occurred? I’m shuddering, I mean not to but I’m…scared? Sure. I don’t want you t o tell me its nothing that would be absurd…a lie …a slur..But as you start to drag it out longer…I start to think it’s something I might have to ponder, thinking is a disease, I try not to let my mind wonder….

I start to dread, wishing not to find out another soul is dead. I listen to the silence, now becoming a long thread.

That is until. “So I have come to the conclusion that, the obvious is the answer”. I stare “what, I’m so confused”. She smiles. In the game of mental strength she wins often I lose.