Tainted

Everything felt tainted
Her touch almost a poison
Making his skin crawl and mind haunt him
 Its funny because she used to be perfect
At least to him
But now its hard just to look at her
Each day trying to get over the hurt
I mourn the love died that day
Trying to keep living, pushing past the pain
But it's still there etched in my brain
Like an illness eating away
Rotting away
The remorse the regret the shame
My insides swirl like snakes
I just want to sleep and never to wake
I want to feel like I did before that day
Anything other than this sickening pain
I'm just gonna medicate to numb out these days
Hopefully when I awake from the haze
Things have changed
I don't know if I care anymore
I'm giving up hope
She doesn't even try it seems
Its all just a sick joke