Eternally shy

Eternally shy
I find myself playing games
Keeping secrets
Shutting myself off from the crowd
I find myself lying to loved ones
I find my confidants missing

Is it then such a wild thing
To say now
That I love booze

Influenced
I sway slowly as I walk home
And I carry nothing with me
As in a dream
What I found under clouds and through haze
Was not really worth keeping.
Its golden shimmer
Yet another trick of the sun