Suicide

   
   
                 I see a long list with my name;  
                 one of many blood dropped rain;  
                 beyond deep seeded shame;  
                 blank minded; always drained;  
   
                 how the hell do I maintain;  
                 need a transplant for my brain;  
                 wished a gun I could obtain;  
                 in my life, there's little gain  
   
                 all I see are twisted games;  
                 more or less there is disdain;  
                 driven egos all the same;  
                 I am always filled with pain;  
 
           life's a puzzle I don't want;  
           never ending thoughts will haunt;  
           box-and match that's filled with taunts;  
           I'm that house that no one wants;  
 
          I am burning inside out;  
          I am losing oxygen;  
          there's no point for firemen;  
          I just want it all to end;
  
            my worth an all time low;
            my energy just depletes;
            I'm what they call a burnout;
            each day is on repeat;
 
            wish that I could go in peace;
          something painless; something brief;
           I'm a zombie as of now;
            might as well be six feet deep....

       couldn't function if I tried;
       I know failures very well;
      when my body drops and dies;
       I've escaped this mental hell....