Take me away.

Take me away from here. Kill me in my sleep. Stop my mouth and close my lungs. In love take me away from here.

All the world is as fire to me. I am hurting, I am badly burned. I can not explain this feeling. It is deafening. I can’t think anymore or see very far. I am so sad, I know despair.

Take me away from here. Please God Kill me in my sleep. Please God stop my heart. Please God make me sleep forever. Take me away from here.

Everything is so loud and full of chaos. They make no sense to me, people make no sense to me. I can not connect with one, not a single person. Where is peace, and where is love without depth? It is lost in this place. I can’t keep up, things are moving too fast. The days fall into themselves with out rest.

Take me away from here. Pull me out of my body gently. Take my hand and sit me up to leave this flesh behind. Make time complete and bring me to the day of my death now. Bring it to me now. Take me away from here.

The simplest tasks are greuling, normal things that must be done cause me great distress. I can’t do these things when my mind is screaming. What is causing this, where has it come from? When will it end. My heart is as high as polaris and as deep as the depths of the earth. It is an open wound.

Take me away from here.

I am a shell. I am no one, I wouldn’t recognize myself in a crowd. I am a blowing reed.

I abandon myself and disassociate so that I might escape this pain. I watch myself watching myself watching myself…