Finding My Puzzle Pieces

A puzzle with a million and one pieces missing
Like a movie without an ending
A story that never ends
Like a rash that always itches
Just feels like a part of me is missing
Parts of me unsatisfied
And I know it

Keeps me living in irony
It irks me so bad I scream silently
Inside
A heart thats left with no blood to pump
Like a grasshopper that's too afraid to jump

A sun that never stays up
No shadow because the blinds stay shut
I just feel so hurt
I cant speak life

Parts of me,
I've caused so much strife
Keep praying for life
Everything I know was a lie

Too afraid to know what lies inside
It feels soo dark inside
Especially when there is no one by my side
Its like the water wont subside
I keep drowning in my eyes

The ocean is closing in
Even the sharks are eating at my insides
Where will this leave me standing?
This world I am in is so demanding

Try to be myself
But
It's just not good enough
Is that why I'm by myself?

Suicide would be too easy
Plus my body says it needs me
Flight or Fight
I have the world on my shoulders

And mother earth tells me to hold her
Keep hopping grasshopper
Keep pushing you'll make it
If you stop now

You'll never see yourself smile
No one else can feel my trails
I am my puzzle piece
I was my motivation
When the puzzle was finished

All around you doubt diminishes
When that missing piece to the puzzle
Finds out to be you!