GIVING

 
The lord giveth
And the lord
Taketh away
I call that cruelty
Where is the love?
Where is the kind heart?
I was told we were all God’s children
You don’t treat your children like that
You don’t sacrifice your only son
You don’t drown your children
You don’t turn them into salt
You don’t give them life
And just take it away

This inspired piece
Written in the week
Of my last trip to the forest
It is breaking my heart
It feels like yet more punishment
The forest really affected and infected me
The whole thing has been a life changing experience
But this week, sadly it all just stops
And I must return to the drudgery
Of a bloody mundane existence
Almost housebound four walls
Closing in as winter takes hold
Everything here is grey
Especially my mood
Worried contemplation
Of stepping backward
And downwards

If the Lord gave me this
He is certainly now taking it away
Without a thought
Of the consequences
The dark effect
Suicidal thoughts
But not yet
I wouldn’t
Give him
That
Pleasure
I’ll take
Away
His victory