Give me a sign

I'm begging for the lord to please give me a sign
Give me a sign that will be all mine.
I begging to the lord to help me through these days,  
because only he knows how hard it is to be living here today
Issues at home and issues elsewhere  
Issues stress me out, I'm pulling out my hair.
Tell me now lord ,
why do I feel this way?
 I really don't want to feel this way.
I'm suppose to he happy, it shouldn't be this way.
 Where did I go wrong lord tell me now, here, today.
Please, I praise to you on my knees.. Begging you to give me a sign lord please.
I don't wanna cry but I need to cry.
Lately I've been holding so much pain and tears inside.
I know life isn't perfect and thats why we aren't either.
 Lately I've been bugging, like the cartoon, call me nothing more than an angry beaver.
Lies that she told me in the past how daring of me to even believe her.
 I don't know who to trust,  and trusting is a must.
Lord help me out speak to me what's up?
 I feel so alone, no one here  to hold.
Bless me with some warmth because only you know that I'm cold.
 I have lost control of my own control.
Now when I get angry, I don't even know  
 What am I to do? Am I a  chosen one for you.
If that's the case lord let me know the truth
I'm feeling oh so silly, and  the feeling is not so good
I'm thinking about things that I  really never should
And I could block them out, but what good does that do
Subsiding feelings that are there oh I wish I could
Go to sleep right now and  wake up as a different man.
Way up in the sky with you big old man.
But thats not the case
can you see my face?
Look me in the eyes and tell me everything's okay and this is nothing but a phase.  
Im looking for a sign
But I feel as if I am blind,
Feelings so unkind.
Im about to lose my mind,
And I can't even mind myself,  
Lord,
I really need some help