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Self Doubt
I’m cracking under the pressure
Can’t take this thing at leisure
They fucking want what from me?
They wanna… oh jeez…
I don’t know what to say
I don’t know how this is played
My mind reels, I’m freaking out
Everything I have to offer, I doubt
An opportunity I can’t pass up
An opportunity to… oh fuck
I panic, my breathing rough
It’s everything, but is it enough?
Can I handle it, just go with the flow?
You know what? I just don’t know…
Take a breath and just breathe
Think about what they are asking of me
Someone thinks I am worth the time
Someone thinks that I can shine
I know I have something to say
But it doesn’t put my fear at bay
I lack some serious social skills
And this thing won’t pay the bills
It might put me on the map
I feel like I just got slapped
With a dose of reality
That just doesn’t feel real to me
© Indie Adams 2011
Can’t take this thing at leisure
They fucking want what from me?
They wanna… oh jeez…
I don’t know what to say
I don’t know how this is played
My mind reels, I’m freaking out
Everything I have to offer, I doubt
An opportunity I can’t pass up
An opportunity to… oh fuck
I panic, my breathing rough
It’s everything, but is it enough?
Can I handle it, just go with the flow?
You know what? I just don’t know…
Take a breath and just breathe
Think about what they are asking of me
Someone thinks I am worth the time
Someone thinks that I can shine
I know I have something to say
But it doesn’t put my fear at bay
I lack some serious social skills
And this thing won’t pay the bills
It might put me on the map
I feel like I just got slapped
With a dose of reality
That just doesn’t feel real to me
© Indie Adams 2011
Published 14th Sep 2011
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14th Sep 2011 10:25pm
I am going through feelings like this right now, though I have no idea if they are in similar fields, this is one of those poems that I am glad it doesn't reveal what it's all about so much as the anxiety of making a very difficult choice.
I have a few hard choices to make in the next few weeks and each one will send me in a direction I haven't gone before. And there doesn't seem to be a choice to maintain the status quo, so there is a level of fear of the unknown that I am not looking forward to, even though there is the very real possibility that things will improve.
Thanks for a very thought provoking poem!
I have a few hard choices to make in the next few weeks and each one will send me in a direction I haven't gone before. And there doesn't seem to be a choice to maintain the status quo, so there is a level of fear of the unknown that I am not looking forward to, even though there is the very real possibility that things will improve.
Thanks for a very thought provoking poem!
15th Sep 2011 11:04am
