Lost in some feels

It all happens so suddenly
That line being crossed from friends to lovers
An explosion of emotions
Living in the moment
Left to wonder
If they were blinded by lustful desires
And now that it's settled does she love him, and does he love her on that deeper level
Are they both just lonely seeking passion
Rough sex with someone comfortable
Getting lost in emotions
Finally free to be who they are
Not willing to give up this feeling of freedom
Her words haunt  me beautifully
Bouncing around my soul giving me hopes and dreams
But it can't be
Even if she loved me it could never be, at least indefinitely
These affairs had to end
But how or when
Both caught up in the tangles of love again
Its powerful weight crushing them its spell controlling them
Just puppets on Love's strings  
Bending to its will caving In .
It was certain I loved her , but it was complicated and I could never have her
But I couldn't let her go either
There was too much there
Everything I wanted just sitting there
Starring me in the face wanting me to
Unsure of how it would work
How would we last
But also unwilling to break it off
I'm so fucked up lost in this thrill
What is fake what is real
Is she just using you
Are you leading her
Its so fucking confusing
Not sure of what to feel
Lost in this dance with the devil
Trying both not to lose .