fragmented memories

Bad nightmares fragmented memories still
head aches, past bullshit remains in vain
thoughts haunted from your kisses
no one knows what this is doing to me

could not explain it to you if I tried and omg did I try
it's draining my core, just floating in this sinking feeling
can't begin to explain how much my life has changed
I did not ask for the lies nor the humiliation of coming home

We are now like strangers my backs to the wall
feels like everybody is telling me what to do
frustrated does not even coming close to telling you how I feel
I thought that you would catch my fall no you shoved me in the back

I did not see it coming either it's a crying shame
you’re looking for someone else to blame
you are on the outside looking in judging me
who do you think is to blame, her or me?

Does it even really matter anymore anyway?
You all most twisted my mind haha that's a joke it's twisted
you all most drove me up the wall
I almost took my own life that is true

who's Fault would it of been?  Yours or mine?
I covered you arse when cps came knocking
I had the children believing that not all men are dogs
now look who has egg on their face, yeah me
now, look who's words aren't worth anything I lost you did not.

Ps

I know you guys will never know just how much I miss you and that I truly do, no words describe how much I miss you guys, I hope that I've made some sort of impact on you for when you have your own children.
Love you guys 1 2 3 .