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i wish i could take back that yesterday before i met you. days upon days have passed me by and i still feel sad and blue ...that is whenever my mind wanders to the thoughts i still have of you. i allowed my power to be taken, i didn't stay true to my inner essence. i doubted myself and paved the way for me to be continuously disrespected. people say moments like this is supposed to  teach you a lesson... but all i feel is shame. i wish , i wish , oh how i wish that mind could  have been stronger at that time , so i wouldn't have been played like a game.
despite the negative regression that often plagues my emotion, forward is the direction i been moving in. i am doing my absolute best to go with the flow like the waves we see in the ocean.
the sun has been setting on my desire to be validated by the wrong source of attention, i
have become more selective of who i allow to be let in. i guess you can say i am slightly
jaded, although my hope for true love is not what it once was , it has not completely faded.