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WELCOME TO YOUR LIFE

MISSION ONE

SURVIVE

Easily dismissed childhood chaotic
Avoiding violent eyes of the despotic
Drift away to screams and violence
Dreaming dreams to enjoy the silence

A face and neck anger red
Hide in silence under the bed
Cringe every time he moves too fast
This was never meant to last

Divorce rejection inconsistency
Enforced religious hypocrisy
Childhood becomes increasingly nomadic
Access awkward the contact sporadic

WELCOME TO YOUR LIFE

MISSION ONE COMPLETE

MISSION TWO

DISAPPOINTMENT AND HATE

Outsider in the class
Unfamiliar face that will soon pass
To another place to learn
This face is no object of concern

Fragments of you they dismissed
Futile fantasises of those not kissed
Clothes creased and holes were worn
Poor kid victim of poverty porn

Violent encounters on the estate
Class derision taught you to hate
Cracking books in dark rooms alone
Never the one to cast the first stone

MISSION TWO COMPLETE

Bonus points for survival mode

Earn bonus points and they can be used to destroy memories

WELCOME TO YOUR LIFE

MISSION THREE

REJECTION AND FREEDOM

Kicked out after an altercation
Sofa surfing in this great caring nation
Crashing with a pal who intimately understood
Life growing up in a west Yorkshire hood

Working contracts for fuck all an hour
Making the best of our grim grey tower
We had to use laundrettes we had no washer
Abused on buses, in the street called filthy mosher

Despite this life was great
Freedom worth all the words of hate
Until my pal met yoko ono lass
The friendship diluted in the vodka glass

MISSION FOUR

PRIORITY AND CHANGE

Mind manipulated  capitalist thinking
Deputy manager pub trade drinking
Drinking and thinking I'm a local celebrity
Sober realise they don't give a shit about me

Learn to drive a forklift truck (bonus points)
Days off snort drugs and fuck (lose points)
Invited to the house-parties and every rave
Understand in the days of the week im a slave

Realising im out on the fringe
The old man used to make me cringe
Chems dull certain recollections
Enhance empathy, sex and erections

MISSION FIVE

You made it this far

The connection in our  life
I asked you to be my wife
I don't even agree with marriage
All the cliché horse and carriage

I was loved up and childishly needy
Your version perhaps selfish and seedy
Child is born to the  person you derided
After misogynistic treatment you confided

You were damaged just like me
Outside world will never see
The brutal lives only understand
As distant opinions put us on remand

MISSION SIX

ACCEPTANCE AND NOTHING

Fall apart to all time low
Caught in societies undertow
A hostel hostile community defies
Alcohol mkat prescribed SSRI s

Fuck that girl and that boy
Have you got a soul to destroy
Following that long white line
Pretend tomorrow will feel so fine

The comedown internal debate
The realisation of the self hate
Chemical love intermittent kiss
Sporadic moments and tenuous bliss

MISSION SEVEN

BLISSKISS

Loneliness learning everything
No contact alone i sing
The press of lips are second-hand fears
Cliché echo chamber of my destructive ideas

We were briefly infatuated
Thank fuck we were not related
Our moments when we pressed our skin
Never descended to their idea of sin

Loneliness i am alone
A lonely geek game of throne
Now i understand you will never care
You never made promises i guess that is fair

MISSION EIGHT

Working hard not to be fake
Honest and let England shake
Friendship decays over relentless time
Lack of contact is the only crime

Friendships unravel till us lost
In the silence realise the cost
Twisted moments  we both share
It was only you and me there

97 so after the fact
The masculine idea you cant subtract
You were worth better my dear oldest friend
When friendships concerned think about you in the end

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