Out of reach

I close my eye and cry my self to sleep, because ever time I breath, every time I see I hear the lies and the shit of my life an I have fallen. There time  i wish I can open my eyes and stop hanging by a thread of social worth, the way it holding me. My life slowly falling from my hands  im hanging close to that oh so sharp edge, I can see  my chest tight  as I fall my last breath. To have what I want so close to have it taken away it so far yet so close to my reach,  have you ever just wanted to forget all the worlds, the problems, all the shit on your shoulders. I can close my eyes and see it  maybe it just me but i see the light yet again  a hope in the new world the new beginning