The Heart Wants

What is it about you that I just can’t fully shake?  
Always something lingering in the shadows  
It calls to me when I am weak  
I laugh it off when I am able  
Still you affect me  
My head knows better  
It will end just the same  
 
My heart still burns for you  
Wants to know if you’ve grown  
Have you forgotten us yet?  
Why wasn’t it worth the fight?  
My heart is functional but never whole  
Tells my eyes no one else will ever be as beautiful  
My heart lies and tells me there’s still hope  
 
My mind has grown too strong  
To fall for such a naïve notion  
I know what you are and how you choose to be  
As disappointing as it is, it’s the way it will always stay  
I still get sad from time to time  
Though not nearly as often  
When I do it’s fleeting  
 
Even with the ugliness of our final act  
I still find beauty in what we had  
Days of laughter spilled deep into the night  
Catching eyes from across the room and smiling uncontrollably  
Speaking to each other with nothing but a glance  
The way we made love, like no other  
Leaves a tall order for those that come after  
 
To watch us wilt was torturous  
Smell of decay as our love lay decomposing in a sea of effortless silence.  
Only at the end did we find our words  
Hateful and sharp were they  
Made to wound and maim instead of heal  
The only true communication ever had  
A taste in the mouth remains so sour  
 
There is no getting over it  
Simply getting on with it  
The ties severed and frayed until the day where pride is left behind  
Some things are meant to stay broken  
We don’t get a second chance  
Just the ghosts of romance gone bad  
And haunting reminders of a lesson never learned