the pain of loving

The exposed skin on my wrist is pale and vounerable
Only a few rasied pink lines remain
everything looks better than a coupple of weeks ago
lifes been tough
and theres no way to cope with any of it
he left and another came to take his place
evryone likes him and i may too
but i cant cope with emotions like this
im scared
and i have nowhere to turn
execpt the blade
The blade is small and cold
as long as i dont go to deep, no one will
ever know
and i can keep it my dirty little secret
only if i never had loved before, maybe it
wouldnt be so hard for me to love now
it causes me pain to see him with another girl
or even know he is
hes so far way and i still cant live without him
maybe i should have died a long time ago then
because what if i never even had him to begin with?