My Love My Poision

Your love is my drug but I think I'm overdosing somewhere along the line physical attraction turned into more our love grew deeper and I went from eww I really want him to now I really need him.....your love for me turnt to control but not because you wanted but because I let you ...my addiction to your love grew so deep I'd do just about anything to keep you near by me. But when I was tired of being in your control it was new to me  you so your words of love turned to hate so the words you were speaking I could not make ....sense of what you were saying  because  we were in love ...or were you just faking....or maybe I was just too blind to see that maybe I loved you just a little bit more than you loved me....or maybe you do love me it's just not as clear to see...but I'm tired of wiping tears off my cheek I'm tired of being sorry and chasing after your week after week....I'm tired of loving love and playing hide and seek....if this is love let me be.....because this love hurts and makes me weak...when it's good it's great but when it's bad all those words of love turn into hate....but my love I'm addicted what do I do you're so strong I'm scared to cut you loose....how did I become so dependent on you ....you creeped your way in like a summers flu.,..a summer flu that only goes away when you're around so I want you to stay ...but my love you're breaking me day my day ...my hearts deteriorating...and I'm not sure how much more It can take...My love please don't be mislead I love you  but these games we play are messing with my head.....so much that I'm loosing myself ....loosing myself.... over someone else....altering things that makes....me....me....to make someone else happy who in return won't do the same for me.....you say your love is so deep so why is it you can't change for me....I'm not asking for much I just want the same I give to you I say it so much it's starting to seem like de Ja vu......I don't mind cutting people off ....but if you're not what's the cost ....I get mad at you alot at things you do but I don't speak I do them to you but when I do it ....it's world war 2.....I can have friends just as you .... ...you grab an inch and turn it to a mile .....making it seem as if I'm having their child....but when you do the same you throw a little smile reassuring me it's nothing more....why can't I do the same without an uproar...but my love I've almost reached my end to the point I'm starting to give in.....my loud outburst now turn to silence....the hurt I would normally feel hurts less and quickly heals...the messages of arguments I would normally entertain are left read because I rather refrain.....refrain from being ignored...refrain from being unheard...because lately my words and cry seem to be so invisible....so why speak and get put down by your words that can be so piercing.....my love I'm taking back control...and if you don't understand anything I just said maybe it's time to move on ....because I'm done being unheard be belittled and kicked to the curb...I'm done being  killed by words that seem so sweet and turn around to words that knock me to knees....My love it's my turn to be in control and if you can't comply maybe you should move on ....no it's not what I want todo...but the drug you supply I'm showing you isn't strong enough to hold me ...and as i become immune to it....I can let it go and spread my wings....if that's not what you want I suggest you change somethings..and if not I still know your love was true I'll just know I loved you a little bit more than you could ever see ...My love I mean what I say ...this time there will be no more coming me back when I Leave I'm going to starting a new path blowing away with the winds and trees  ....I love you my Love but it's time I take control of me