Be Real or Be Gone

This seems to be about an internet love affair gone awry. It is always hard to tell when someone is being truthful but  on the internet it is so much more difficult when all you have to go by are printed words and pictures you can't even be sure are of the person you are chatting with. Deception is everywhere and motivations are hard to understand. When you catch them in a lie, call them out and call them what they are, LIARS! Well said JJ!  
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Yes Heather, spot on, although it is about 2 women, or so I thought, that contacted me on a dating website for artists and poets. After a dozen messages from apparent women I suspected were not who they claimed to be, these two women wrote to me and appeared to be everything I was looking for. But I became suspicious when they sent me pictures that seemed too good to be true. When I asked to do voice chat they kept coming up with excuses why they could not. I was finally able to get them to admit they lived in west Africa. WoW, of all the places, the SCAM capital of the inter-verse! Give me a break!!! Is there no one real in this freakin' world? Thanks for commenting H! JJ

JJ this fucking sucks that you went through this you deserve a true beauty inside out.. I hope you don't give up hope of this happening for you.. as for the write this is for real and eye opening.. I've never did online dating but have been seduced by a golden poetic tongue..

great ink..

love Brenda

Thanks Bren! That is some serious praise coming from you... I was in a angry mood but also feeling stupid for even hoping either one of them was real. I don't know if they were even woman. Probably both guys sitting in the same internet café in Nigeria. Hopeful hearts are easily deceived!!! JJ

Ah Joe, I'm glad at least you didn't let them take it to the level of getting you to shell out money to supposedly help one or both to "travel" to N.Y. and then say they can't make it but have you open up a bank account where you put more of your limited income, now dwindling even more, to have it siphoned by your dark lover(s) so they can spend it on their family, or children, or themselves most likely.  Now I'm getting angry to find out this almost happened to you.  Stay true, my friend, hold fast, and stick to those instincts that warned you just in time.     ~Jadey x

Thanks Jade, though they never really stood a chance. I'm too aware of such scams to be taken. I was just hoping one of them might actually be real. I guess it is too much to hope for, that there might be some one out there for me. But neither cyberspace or the real world has ever offered me anything but heartbreak. I really should give up but I hate the idea of spending another 30 years alone in this life. The last 35 years have been nothing but a recipe for suicide but I'm still here trying. So killing myself isn't going to happen. Karma better have an amazing life waiting for me in the next one because it just ain't fair that a heart like mine should be made to suffer so much in one lifetime. I must have been Adolf Hitler in my last life... JJ

I can't console you as I am personally out of hope. I can't make encouraging noises as I lost my faith a long time ago - my only suggestion is charity through the medium of kind hearted prostitutes. I don't do suicide either, takes too much courage and knowing my luck I would probably fail :-(

this is a fantastic write, one I totally get :-)

Are there kind hearted charitable prostitutes? Not around here. I spent over 10 years  in my old neighborhood being asked if I wanted a date and never bit the bait. Besides, Schenectady hookers are sloppy and dripping with STDs! I'd rather be alone... Thanks for commenting David! JJ

Even online people can be dicks.

Very true A, even more so because they can hide behind invisible masks much harder to see through. Deception is food for temptation... it all seems so diabolical that it doesn't make sense. All I want is to be loved. Why is that so impossible? Have I been cursed? JJ

Love is a hot mess, JJ.  Causing all kinds of problems and issues. I know why you crave it so much. Its a good thing, and a hateful thing yet the very thing that I breathe in every day. Your day will come. <3

And the saga continues. Got a couple more contacts and got them to call me. But it was obvious they were guys disguising their voices. They acted offended when I told them so, but wtf? Do they think I'm gonna have phony phone sex with them? They gotta be really desperate in Ghana to try to get lonely old guys to talk dirty with them in hopes I'll send them money to come and live with me when they aren't even real and think I'd be stupid enough to send them a few hundred bucks. Seriously, do other countries really think we are that gullible?
JJ