Deep Thoughts

Sometimes I jus wanna off myself.. Born a sinner with no obvious help.. This Guilt in my mind crammed up in a corner.. And people still wonder why im a stoner.. Voices in my head constantly on replay.. Tryin to hop hurdles but can't run a relay.. I always struggle with the he say she say.. Im tired of this shit taking over me.. So Ima do what it takes.. That's a task you can't handle.. You cant begin to grasp it.. Hating your way through life.. Living it like a scandal.. I feel like my whole fuckin life lost its handbook.. As These fuckers still laugh and crack jokes.. I stand there and still choke.. Man enough to admit I am scared.. Its got me feeling like im impaired.. Suicides got me thinking.. If I do it would they care.. Isnt life meant to be something we share.. If everyone would stop judging jus for one second.. Stop being selfish and give someone else a little credit.. Find peace and happiness in something we can all cherish..