Trepidations Of A Lover

We have tagged it "love"
But baby are we right?
Aren't we just using ourselves
For our sensual delight?

Love is not selfish
Love has no fear
But why am I always worried
That you'll not be there?

When you meet someone else
Someone better than me
Or am I just a victim
Of my own insecurity?

I've seen affairs crumble
Even those that started off well
With hearts shattered completely
A story too sad to tell

You wonder why I panic
Why my smile fades into a frown
Why in the middle of our happy moments
I switch and feel so down

It's because I have lost so many
My heart have been hurt before
And something tells me that sooner
You too will walk out that door

So I'm careful not to fall completely
So sad I'm slipping in deep
Is this love I'm feeling
Or is it another foolish sleep?

The answer is elusive
We are here in this chapter
Maybe I will cry later
For now let me enjoy the laughter