Mother's curse

Since young I had been unlike most
Did not become; the valiant host
Could not become; as others hoped
Grew afraid I'd not learn to cope.
 
Lack of skills wracked me with doubt
With fears; my mind wrought throughout
With regret; I'm fully worn
Doubt I'd live since soul was torn.
 
Thoughts of darkness clouded mind  
Fell in gloom as one who's blind
Found a piece of childhood past
Clues of curse my mother cast.
 
Image danced within my head
Felt entranced; I sought my bed
Closed eyes to veil from obscene
Could not quash the evil seen.  
 
Storms raging upon my home
Felt I was not there alone
Grabbed my Bible ran to hide
Lightning struck the ground outside.
 
(Then saw mother's corpse appear)
Knew I'd been cursed with my own fear.