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Intoxicated Surrender
Am I supposed to carry all your sorrows?
Like.....they're a burden of my own?
Like I'm holding on to tomorrow.....
As if yesterday was not already gone?
It's a song that's already been sung...
It's a moon that's already engulfed my sun
It's another moment of my time again borrowed,
Another sign that nightmares don't like to move on.....
Still spinning in circles from these
shackles being lifted,
Long sought after revelations gifted,
in which elaborate confessions bled from you....
Dripping from your mouth and fingertips
Eyes cold and coal deep
Like snakes warped in the loneliest hue
of deep onyx
smothered in ash and fumes
I...am finally free of you
We....are free of you
All the ties that bind me
to the memories of the past
lurking with future tragedies,
Poured out like acid....
Devoured pieces of me....
pushed out into nonexistence,
All those breaths,
Paranoid pawns,
Fear cradling me
from dusks till dawns...
You can no longer mask it
The monstrosity of your soul has been exposed
Liquor drowned remedies
Revealed your pedophiliac tendencies,
And all I have carried....
all now know...
Bittersweet rejoices,
Silent graciousness
for your inability to...
to...the irony in which I say this....
never put the bottle down
That bottle I cursed so many nights
The temple to the poison that sucked life
and crumpled it into dark desires
Those unheard prayers and pleas,
Hoping you'd never take another drink
But now my nemesis came to greet,
and uphold the kismet it birthed at your disgraceful feet
I knew this moment would one day crown
When burdens of your demons would cause you to drown
And karma would raise you by your throat,
to make your silence bellow loud
Patience winning at its virtue
the relief brings spiritual sound,
My seeds now know my intentions were profound,
The chess moves I had to make
Is what raised their queen to royalty
Saved them from one less tragedy,
Prevented my past from playing repeat
and spun brightness from a calamity
I always knew a demon lay in that triangular vessel you held so high,
Always praising the most high
But then intoxication would creep inside
and the real "I and I" came from beneath them dark ominous eyes
It's over now,
This being my last vent,
My last moment to ever disrespect my pen
And waste it's beautiful ink breath
On a thought of you chaining down my regrets....
I am free of you
Thank you my universe
for showing the light on why,
for opening doors quietly,
bringing justice through the darkened night
And although iron is what I wish was
your home,
I'll take what I am offered,
Because your exposed mind is a prison of its own.....
Published 23rd Mar 2017
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23rd Mar 2017 1:31pm
damn...
talk about a heavy vibe..
this is a very different write/rite from you LA
in structure pace and intent..
very vivid concise and conversational..
so many heavy weighted lines to choose from
in regards to this
the one that stood out the most was
"I always knew a demon lay in that triangular vessel you held so high,
Always praising the most high
But then intoxication would creep inside
and the real "I and I" came from beneath them dark ominous eyes "
very distinct and direct..
and this here
"My seeds now know my intentions were profound,
The chess moves I had to make
Is what raised their queen to royalty "
profoundly classic!!!
i can feel the emancipation and vindication
all throughout this vibe
much respect
talk about a heavy vibe..
this is a very different write/rite from you LA
in structure pace and intent..
very vivid concise and conversational..
so many heavy weighted lines to choose from
in regards to this
the one that stood out the most was
"I always knew a demon lay in that triangular vessel you held so high,
Always praising the most high
But then intoxication would creep inside
and the real "I and I" came from beneath them dark ominous eyes "
very distinct and direct..
and this here
"My seeds now know my intentions were profound,
The chess moves I had to make
Is what raised their queen to royalty "
profoundly classic!!!
i can feel the emancipation and vindication
all throughout this vibe
much respect
23rd Mar 2017 4:53pm
Thank you naaj, it's been a heavy few weeks for me and I think this piece was the lifted weight I needed. I appreciate your vibe.
23rd Mar 2017 1:51pm
23rd Mar 2017 4:54pm
Salute PM....As is the rule in life...stay solo in the mind when class is in session...tune out the other perceptions and take in the offered lesson.
Anonymous
23rd Mar 2017 2:22pm
"It's over now,
This being my last vent,
My last moment to ever disrespect my pen
And waste it's beautiful ink breath
On a thought of you chaining down my regrets....
I am free of you"
Found myself a bit breathless reading this one. It strikes deep and grips hard from the beginning. And then you dropped this bit here and it was like a breath of fresh air sweeping through the room. Adding this to my collection for repeated recollection of where I've been and how far I've come. Head lowered in respect, poetess
This being my last vent,
My last moment to ever disrespect my pen
And waste it's beautiful ink breath
On a thought of you chaining down my regrets....
I am free of you"
Found myself a bit breathless reading this one. It strikes deep and grips hard from the beginning. And then you dropped this bit here and it was like a breath of fresh air sweeping through the room. Adding this to my collection for repeated recollection of where I've been and how far I've come. Head lowered in respect, poetess
23rd Mar 2017 4:57pm
And I bow my head in unanimous respect luv....for the reminder of the pain and strength built from our experiences is a way to see how great we have become <3 thank you for relating.
24th Mar 2017 7:36am
Deep and heavy piece of poetry that I related to quite a lot. I can't say anything that hasn't been said.
Talented pen!
~anonshadow😏
Talented pen!
~anonshadow😏
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14th Aug 2017 7:08pm
Thank you luv...this is one of my most treasured yet heart reaching pieces...for the darkness it derives from is something hard to face each time I read it....yet the feeling of relief I felt writing.....will always prevail. <3
