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Something He Doesn't Have to Know
[font=Times New Roman]Maybe I should start at the beginning
Oh wait that's what this is. Well here goes nothing.
I told a stranger about all the men I knew and had decided to
just keep one to fuck
Yeah I know, doesn't sound so bad at first
But what you, yes you, have to know is that they were all
mine at the same time
Whoa is what you might say but hear me out, because there is
more that you should know. I love only two of the three. See,
it's only three; no big deal. You should know by now that there is
some sex involved, but I'll delay those details because I still
care if you know. I think about them all everyday. What they're doing.
Are they aware of each other? Should I tell them one by one?
These questions cross my brain every second because........
I needed them so. I needed them to need me. I needed them to give me
what I could not supply to myself. Maybe that's selfish and well....needy,
but I need things in life. I am a lady after-all. In this case I care if you
know just how each of them has changed my life in the past two years.
They've given me all the things a 21 year old looks for in a man. I
should be more careful lately though. Now here is what I 'need' you to
know.
One fucks me good and gives me love that only a soul mate could prove to be existing. He lets me know everyday that I belong to him and he belongs to me. Of course I don't tell him that he has a runner-up in his spot every
other day of the week. I guess there isn't much of another way to hurt
someone except chewing on their heartstrings. Now don't get me wrong, I
feel bad almost everyday thinking about how much I could get
from just him and how much he needs of me.
Maybe this is also something you should know, I see one more
for wanting as bad as the first. It's crazy; almost like dipping your
feet in a bucket of ice until your toes are red. He isn't much to
me to begin with, but I guess that's the way it starts.
Probably the reason why things are tricky around here now. He is
a sweet, demanding, not my type kind of guy.
You also 'need' to know how hard it is looking at him when he
says hello or when he tries to be funny or just himself
I know I know, you have been judging me the whole storytelling
But you should guess by now that I just can't help myself
I'm a true man-eater but I love all my boys better than any chocolate
cookie in the whole world
Probably should start looking into ways of forgiveness because
while I have been telling all this my web unwound just a little the
other day. I hate knowing I stand to lose them all if everything
doesn't play my way. I have myself to blame. There's no place
I'd rather be than in my circle of men than anywhere else
Now I need to know something from you, yes you
Does it all seem so sad and terrible? Am I wrong for all of a sudden
wanting just one but can't slowly break up the others?
............No, because that's just something he still doesn't need to know
Oh wait that's what this is. Well here goes nothing.
I told a stranger about all the men I knew and had decided to
just keep one to fuck
Yeah I know, doesn't sound so bad at first
But what you, yes you, have to know is that they were all
mine at the same time
Whoa is what you might say but hear me out, because there is
more that you should know. I love only two of the three. See,
it's only three; no big deal. You should know by now that there is
some sex involved, but I'll delay those details because I still
care if you know. I think about them all everyday. What they're doing.
Are they aware of each other? Should I tell them one by one?
These questions cross my brain every second because........
I needed them so. I needed them to need me. I needed them to give me
what I could not supply to myself. Maybe that's selfish and well....needy,
but I need things in life. I am a lady after-all. In this case I care if you
know just how each of them has changed my life in the past two years.
They've given me all the things a 21 year old looks for in a man. I
should be more careful lately though. Now here is what I 'need' you to
know.
One fucks me good and gives me love that only a soul mate could prove to be existing. He lets me know everyday that I belong to him and he belongs to me. Of course I don't tell him that he has a runner-up in his spot every
other day of the week. I guess there isn't much of another way to hurt
someone except chewing on their heartstrings. Now don't get me wrong, I
feel bad almost everyday thinking about how much I could get
from just him and how much he needs of me.
Maybe this is also something you should know, I see one more
for wanting as bad as the first. It's crazy; almost like dipping your
feet in a bucket of ice until your toes are red. He isn't much to
me to begin with, but I guess that's the way it starts.
Probably the reason why things are tricky around here now. He is
a sweet, demanding, not my type kind of guy.
You also 'need' to know how hard it is looking at him when he
says hello or when he tries to be funny or just himself
I know I know, you have been judging me the whole storytelling
But you should guess by now that I just can't help myself
I'm a true man-eater but I love all my boys better than any chocolate
cookie in the whole world
Probably should start looking into ways of forgiveness because
while I have been telling all this my web unwound just a little the
other day. I hate knowing I stand to lose them all if everything
doesn't play my way. I have myself to blame. There's no place
I'd rather be than in my circle of men than anywhere else
Now I need to know something from you, yes you
Does it all seem so sad and terrible? Am I wrong for all of a sudden
wanting just one but can't slowly break up the others?
............No, because that's just something he still doesn't need to know
Published 12th Feb 2017
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12th Feb 2017 5:13am
11th Mar 2017 2:27am
I applaud the honesty in this, 3 doesn’t even seem like so many. And who are we to judge there is always a double standard with men and women when it comes to lovers. I know I myself have juggled deeper confusion than jus 3 before. and its as you say you get certain things from different ones that the others jus can’t give you and even if they did it wouldn’t be the same as it would be with another person anyway. It is a very dangerous and greedy business and Im don’t sure if you should even seek forgiveness if your getting what you want in the end… enjoyed this
13th Mar 2017 11:21pm
First of all, the story was good. There were good things and bad things I saw, now I like how you were honest and explaining your condition. The bad part is playing with each guy emotions, because these days guys get crazy because of something good was stopped. I understand that its something that you want, but needs out weight everything. Now I know that you had a guy that really loves you and that is willing to do anything for you. If he lacking in the area that you want talk it out with him, because there are too many disloyal people out here. Think about it. Bravo poet.
