Letting Everything Take Over

What if I let the darkness take over and consume me?
Just for a moment the peace and quietness will take control
Over me. I can forget about my racing thoughts and I will see

That I am not that broken girl anymore. I will be whole
Again just for that frozen memory and time.
Every bit of sadness that washes over me stole

Every part of the happy girl I used to be. I cannot climb
To the top of the mountain anymore because I have lost
That battle. The demons have won. I feel every bit of grime

Stuck on me. It is like living in a nightmare and holocaust
Every day of my existence. I try to always follow
The crowd. I have been looked over and have been tossed

Away just because I always look happy. I am so hollow
And empty on the inside, but nobody ever wants to truly
See that. They cannot stand to see me wallow.

I get asked “Are you okay?” I have to answer them coolly
That I am perfectly okay when we both know that everything
Is not below the surface. I have no sense of my natural beauty.

*entered into Depression competition.