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Trials
when I was young
I walked home from school in pain
my neck nearly broke from a gang of bullies
once home my parents told me
not to hold grudges, I must learn forgiveness
that night I looked into the mirror
with tears rolling down my face
told myself this
"I never want to be so passive
If I’m going to make it in this life
I need to learn to fight back"
when I was a teenager
I fell for an older woman
she cheated on her husband with me
they had a child together
foolishly I thought we would run away
when she broke things off
and went back to her unsuspecting husband
I looked into the mirror
with tears rolling down my face
told myself this
"I don’t ever want to be so cold
I never want to feel so alone
when I get older
I will cherish my loved ones"
once I became a young adult
I found the girl of my dreams
thought she was the one
the one that would give me a family
but god said no
that day I looked into the mirror
cursed everyone and everything
took sometime
but I needed to accept
the gifts life did give me
and let go of what I can’t have
my trials helped me stand
when all I wanted to do was crumble
I walked home from school in pain
my neck nearly broke from a gang of bullies
once home my parents told me
not to hold grudges, I must learn forgiveness
that night I looked into the mirror
with tears rolling down my face
told myself this
"I never want to be so passive
If I’m going to make it in this life
I need to learn to fight back"
when I was a teenager
I fell for an older woman
she cheated on her husband with me
they had a child together
foolishly I thought we would run away
when she broke things off
and went back to her unsuspecting husband
I looked into the mirror
with tears rolling down my face
told myself this
"I don’t ever want to be so cold
I never want to feel so alone
when I get older
I will cherish my loved ones"
once I became a young adult
I found the girl of my dreams
thought she was the one
the one that would give me a family
but god said no
that day I looked into the mirror
cursed everyone and everything
took sometime
but I needed to accept
the gifts life did give me
and let go of what I can’t have
my trials helped me stand
when all I wanted to do was crumble
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Re. Trials
I really like this one, sorta like
how i want to crumble now
but can't and will not.. . just
simply can't afford to...
cause no one has my hand,
there is no shoulder and
perhaps there are many in
this rocky boat ... the gritty
shit ..I call it -"excuzes moi"
life's trials follow us until
death...
From child -to adult youth-all
the way to adulthood..
but truth is, we never figure it
out, we just learn patterns within
ourselves to help us mesh with
ebbing flows
and Im scared of anyone who
claims different ;) but this is
uplifting,overall ..made me smile
-Howlings
how i want to crumble now
but can't and will not.. . just
simply can't afford to...
cause no one has my hand,
there is no shoulder and
perhaps there are many in
this rocky boat ... the gritty
shit ..I call it -"excuzes moi"
life's trials follow us until
death...
From child -to adult youth-all
the way to adulthood..
but truth is, we never figure it
out, we just learn patterns within
ourselves to help us mesh with
ebbing flows
and Im scared of anyone who
claims different ;) but this is
uplifting,overall ..made me smile
-Howlings
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Re: Re. Trials
12th Jan 2017 5:11am
Almost daily we get tested. It's all about staying strong and being greatful for what we do have 😁
Big hug to you *hug* 🤗
Big hug to you *hug* 🤗
Re. Trials
10th Jan 2017 9:52am
I absolutely adore this one DevilsChild!
I too have experienced what I refer to as 'constant crushed hope'
Start to feel like there is something wrong with you because you have no luck and because people don't value your worth. It can take you down a sad path of dark and lonely times and you feel like you're broken repeatedly. Can turn in to anger and resentment and you feel so far from the loving caring person you once were...but then you start to realise it's not you that's the problem, you are worthy you just need to believe it and you start loving yourself again and appreciating the good things around you and in time all will get better. I think you can't appreciate the good we often take for granted until you've experienced the bad.
Much love
FC
💜
I too have experienced what I refer to as 'constant crushed hope'
Start to feel like there is something wrong with you because you have no luck and because people don't value your worth. It can take you down a sad path of dark and lonely times and you feel like you're broken repeatedly. Can turn in to anger and resentment and you feel so far from the loving caring person you once were...but then you start to realise it's not you that's the problem, you are worthy you just need to believe it and you start loving yourself again and appreciating the good things around you and in time all will get better. I think you can't appreciate the good we often take for granted until you've experienced the bad.
Much love
FC
💜
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It seems to me, sometimes it's hard to care for people because you leave yourself open to hurt. But also I want people to care for me. It does crush your hopes when time and time again people let you down, or if you let others down. Life is full of gifts though. Must appreciate them 😁
Re. Trials
10th Jan 2017 10:08am
I strongly relate and have personally experienced many of the trials up above so I know how it feels but way to push through.
"took sometime
but I needed to accept
the gifts life did give me
and let go of what I can’t have
my trials helped me stand
when all I wanted to do was crumble"
^Beautiful example of turning negative events into a positive future.^
"took sometime
but I needed to accept
the gifts life did give me
and let go of what I can’t have
my trials helped me stand
when all I wanted to do was crumble"
^Beautiful example of turning negative events into a positive future.^
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Re: Re. Trials
12th Jan 2017 7:26am
Being strong through tough times can do a lot for a person. It's not always easy though.
Thanks for enjoying 😁
Thanks for enjoying 😁
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10th Jan 2017 12:21pm
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12th Jan 2017 7:30am
Re. Trials
10th Jan 2017 12:48pm
I commend you on having the courage to write this one!
You know I know trials and I know you've had your share as well!
This piece resonates with me, more than you'll ever know...
Thank you for sharing!
Love, Duende
You know I know trials and I know you've had your share as well!
This piece resonates with me, more than you'll ever know...
Thank you for sharing!
Love, Duende
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Re: Re. Trials
12th Jan 2017 7:33am
Being able to say we are still alive and standing is enough to keep trying. Always decide your own path 🤗
Thanks for enjoying 😁
Thanks for enjoying 😁
Re. Trials
10th Jan 2017 3:51pm
Such a vulnerable and strong write, this one. So often we think we can't make it anymore, it's too much. And we surprise ourselves with that little bit more strength to get through. Beautifully written.
Willow
Willow
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Re: Re. Trials
12th Jan 2017 7:39am
It's ether keep going or crumble. I refuse to give up so easily. I always want to have that fight in me that I had when I was young.
Thanks for enjoying 🤗
Thanks for enjoying 🤗
Re. Trials
10th Jan 2017 7:10pm
That pic compliment everything youve shared here,
Looks like we all warriors, no doubt. More like legends
because we're still here. ha!
Rock on man.
Will.
Looks like we all warriors, no doubt. More like legends
because we're still here. ha!
Rock on man.
Will.
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Re: Re. Trials
12th Jan 2017 7:41am
I like the pic also. Life sometimes is a big ugly monster we need to face.
Thanks for enjoying 😁
Thanks for enjoying 😁
Re. Trials
11th Jan 2017 8:36am
And so we learn from our downfalls to rebuild ourselves stronger and wiser.
Nicely done...
Nicely done...
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