Nam Et Amisi Vos

Throughout the Winters cape i found you

While Wandering aimlessly,cold winds Battering and Scarring my Vessel
I had long Forgotten the concept and face of time
Warmth Had No Meaning
The Long Lonely trek through fields of peaceful yet Harsh White Snow
Have Made me an envoy of the winter and the beautiful lifelessness of it.
Deprived of all emotional and physical sensations i have become winter's claim.

Until I Got You.

You With your natural beauty broke me from the dead dry tight grip of winter
You With your curiosity of endless bounds awoke once again my drive to evolve constantly and to move on from the fields of white
You Ignited the spark within giving me life bringing warmth to the lifeless husk that i once was...

Until I Got You.

Conversations were hollow echoes of languages of zero meaning
Life was a constant bore deprived of color and variety
I had no meaning
I Just existed

Until I Got You.

Now Things have changed due to your unique stroke of life and view
Your very existence making me question what fate was and if i was truly cursed for it gave me you..
Everything about you gave me warmth to Your voice,Your Presence,To our first kiss
I who was so accustomed to nothing and a never ending view of it was at a natural Impasse of what to do or how to take action because of...you..

Until I Had You.

I knew of nothing
So in order to keep you in my twisted wintry mind
I did what i shouldn't have I lied
In order to never lose the only thing i ever truly cared about
Throwing me back into winter's embrace where i truly belong.
Alone
Static
And Impartial to all

Until I had you.

I love you.
But Hate Myself For because of me I lost you.
And i am the one to blame.
But Who would ever ever thought i would get you?

Now...
The winter's embrace isn't as cold
isn't as bleak
isn't as Harsh
For the Flame of you still lives on within me..in some sort of fashion.
I Understand the choices i have made up to this point and hopefully
Wish..
That....
One Day.......
Your Warmth...............
May Return...........................

I with self destructive tendencies have destroyed what i loved most the relationship we had Is forever damaged and i shall hold these pieces of what could have been in my heart forever