The mind of an addict

the mind of an addict can be so complicated the feelings of guilt, and shame seem always belated
the resentments sit in the heart waiting, ready to tear your mind apart...
in the beginning its all fun and games
learning to know all the right names,
living the crazy life
forgetting that your a mother and a wife
running from yourself with no where to hide
killing yourself a slow unknowing suicide..
slinging the dope,
running out of hope
and out of the blue it becomes a way of life
your only means to survive
never knowing who to trust
and before you know it, in goes the needle, feel the burn..
the only way to kill the pain
unsure of how my life took such a turn
maybe ive gone INSANE
then all of a sudden i hear the prison doors slam!
back to reality, cause from your high you have to come down..
the emotions hit you like a ton of bricks
the pain ive cause myself and my family cut deep enough to make me sick
now begging for forgiveness
swearing that was the last time knowing they are tired of hearing the same old ryme yet still they forgive you again and again
but the real question always remains "CAN YOU FORGIVE YOU?"  [/b]