Sleepless Death

 Sleep is my one true friend

She takes me to a place where I sway and bend

Here I lay in my slumber

Growing darker
Getting number

I can escape reality
And lose my mind
But then recall
I am running on stolen time

I feel more happiness, cocooned in these cotton sheets
Any beast I can and will defeat, in my time while I'm asleep

It may sound pathetic
But in reality it is tragic
My life is truly chaotic

A tiredness has taken me over completely
It numbs my sense and drags me into this abyss

Darkness is like a blanket, protecting me from thoughts of sadness
I've completely shutdown
I've ran from the town
Somewhere along the way I dropped my crown


And somehow, being evil is better than being sad
My body drags on

Emotionless
                     
If only this heart would stop beating
If only it would stop loving
It could stop hurting
             
It could stop feeling                                  
My body began to shut down
Stop breathing

I'm on a downward spiral
Down the rabbit hole

Depression
                Anxiety
                            Self-loathing
I stop altogether and find inner peace
Once I dream forever