To My Dear One (reflection)

Oh Love...
take a step
back away

take a moment to think of
what to say

what can you see?
How do you feel
when you look at me?

I'll tell you what i think
when i look into
that cold, heartless slab
of reflective glass...

I see a girl
who is simply
complex.

her mind IS her heart.
it's what she uses to think

but you'd never guess.

her memory is broken.
she's losing more
Everyday.

I do not believe
its because she's getting older though
...no...

I'm beginning to wonder
if perhaps
the pain of a past
unspoken,
is pushing what few good
and even short-term ones
she had
out of mind.

I am unsure if the memories
that make her smile
are the ones that truly stick

but the ones that bring her
the most unfathomable heartache
are indeed the ones
that make her tick

So, what is it that you see
when you look at me?

sometimes its a bit more clear
that you think rather highly of this girl
and sometimes, I bet
you wish she had the ability
to see herself thru your eyes

am I right?

it is a depressing,
rather sickening truth...
that this girl
can see herself IN your eyes
when you look at her.

when she looks back
and makes eye contact
...sometimes...
your eyes are reflective

just like a mirror

but that does not mean she sees
as you see

it is only her
as she sees
herself

and although
it cannot be helped,
for this, she....

I
am still so sorry

I LOVE YOU