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Bittersweet Agony
When people show concern...
"I'm fine, thanks for asking!"
I have long since learned
This state of mind is everlasting
One moment to the next I live without shame
I live without fear, I live without blame
This boredom consumes me, each day is the same
Each hour that passes is just like a game
I don't seek for power, I wish not for fame
I'm rather content if just few know my name
Though not even I am so sure of my aim
I walk the winding path and I know not why I came
What I know is no regrets,
A life seeking pleasure begets
Selfishly taking and yet
There are no troubles I have met
Oh, what I would give to get
Lady fortune to place her bets
Against me, for I do covet
Those who have a need to fret
I wish to feel pain unbound
To bathe and bask in what I've found
The darkness to wrap all around
To sink slowly into the ground
I hope that not a single sound
Disturbs me, silence so profound
In suffering my heart will pound
Against the webs in which it's wound
House my soul in prison
In this cage that I've envisioned
You need only to listen
As my tears fall with precision
From ashes I have risen
I, the shadow's lone denizen
In this hole I have been christened
As I meet spiteful derision
Corrupted now beneath the bone
My twisted mind has far outgrown
The likes of which I've never known
I'm happy to lie here alone
As now I feel I may atone
For evil seeds that I have sewn
Towards wrongful deeds my wings have flown
Though far off course I have been blown.
"I'm fine, thanks for asking!"
I have long since learned
This state of mind is everlasting
One moment to the next I live without shame
I live without fear, I live without blame
This boredom consumes me, each day is the same
Each hour that passes is just like a game
I don't seek for power, I wish not for fame
I'm rather content if just few know my name
Though not even I am so sure of my aim
I walk the winding path and I know not why I came
What I know is no regrets,
A life seeking pleasure begets
Selfishly taking and yet
There are no troubles I have met
Oh, what I would give to get
Lady fortune to place her bets
Against me, for I do covet
Those who have a need to fret
I wish to feel pain unbound
To bathe and bask in what I've found
The darkness to wrap all around
To sink slowly into the ground
I hope that not a single sound
Disturbs me, silence so profound
In suffering my heart will pound
Against the webs in which it's wound
House my soul in prison
In this cage that I've envisioned
You need only to listen
As my tears fall with precision
From ashes I have risen
I, the shadow's lone denizen
In this hole I have been christened
As I meet spiteful derision
Corrupted now beneath the bone
My twisted mind has far outgrown
The likes of which I've never known
I'm happy to lie here alone
As now I feel I may atone
For evil seeds that I have sewn
Towards wrongful deeds my wings have flown
Though far off course I have been blown.
Published 23rd Oct 2016
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