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my bottle my weapon
drunk past the point of tipsy
I'm a fucking alcoholic
knocked off my ass right now
sneak a drink in the morning
vodka so no one smells it on my breath
the world too damn bright for a soul like mine
does anyone hear or feel me?
trying to keep the demons at bay
they rage in my mind
wake me with night terrors in the middle of the night
run for salvation in a bottle
the spirits there calm
make things smooth around the edges
glassy eyes peer out at the world
blocking out the powers that be
that whisper to me
I look around at the faces in the crowd
I'm the only one that hears
such a lonely place to be
I feel like everyone is fast asleep
want to shake them and awaken the sheep
warn them that they're being herded towards fire
I scream at them with my mind
no one hears
so on and on I wander this Earth alone
alcohol bottle in hand
the strongest weapon I own
Published 21st Oct 2016
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21st Oct 2016 11:20am
Keanu, cool. vodka-mantled poetry, Crim;
it takes a bottle to write, I figure,
Hemingway was never without one...
it takes a bottle to write, I figure,
Hemingway was never without one...
21st Oct 2016 4:54pm
thank you John though I think i'll be giving up the bottle shortly..
love Crim
love Crim
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21st Oct 2016 12:25pm
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21st Oct 2016 4:55pm
thank you Adam for sharing your own personal understanding of this write..
love Brenda
love Brenda
21st Oct 2016 12:49pm
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Anonymous
21st Oct 2016 2:26pm
I feel your words so deeply, sweet Crim 💓
((Hugs))
((Hugs))
21st Oct 2016 4:56pm
21st Oct 2016 5:12pm
It's very difficult seeing something no one else seems to see. It makes you want to scream to the top of your lungs, but you know that people would just look at you like you're crazy. The bottle helps numb, as do drugs - but unfortunately the situation is worse when we recover. Not only are there more blind, but our head is pounding where it once was our heart.
Love you, Brenda. Keep pushing the pen.
Love you, Brenda. Keep pushing the pen.
22nd Oct 2016 9:07pm
thank you Sage one for such a deeply insightful comment.. i'll be climbing out of the bottle soon..
love Brenda
love Brenda
Anonymous
21st Oct 2016 7:14pm
I confess I have no comprehension of the bottle numbing sensation of this write. But I feel the desperate need in this, recognize it. I've the greatest love and respect for you and your struggle, Brenda. Living alone with something so profound...hurts. Much love...
Willow
Willow
22nd Oct 2016 9:08pm
21st Oct 2016 8:36pm
This piece brings to memory the girl I once was who every now and again tries to take over the woman I am now.... Alcohol is the biggest form of escapism..... I love the realness in this piece.
~BSavvy
~BSavvy
22nd Oct 2016 9:09pm
thank you Savvy one I hope this is in the past for me one day as well.. I deeply appreciate you sharing your experience with me..
love Brenda
love Brenda
Anonymous
21st Oct 2016 11:16pm
Brenda.. i know the feeling.. and understand all to well.. love you!!
Dave
Dave
22nd Oct 2016 9:10pm
23rd Oct 2016 4:25am
I really enjoyed this, tho it made me realise I have not had a drink in 2 years because of medication taken - I would still like to have a drink now and then :-(
excellent write as always :-)
excellent write as always :-)
23rd Oct 2016 5:52am
thank you David i'll be leaving the bottle except a nip here and there soon.. you're deeply appreciated..
love Brenda
love Brenda
18th Dec 2016 11:48pm
I found A A was my only salvation
I'm 10yrs under my belt of sobriety
My life has never been on this level of intensity of peace contentment love
I now face life on life's terms no more running away from realty
I'm 10yrs under my belt of sobriety
My life has never been on this level of intensity of peace contentment love
I now face life on life's terms no more running away from realty
19th Dec 2016 7:36pm
congratulations on your sobriety :) thank you for sharing with me you're deeply appreciated.. may that I find peace as well..
love Crim
love Crim
