Disappointed

i dig this shallow grave
with the killing jokes
you've grown as cold as life
as my laughter spills over the flowers
why is my happiness
only a short term effect?
with the shadows that shudder
please don't remind me
how lost i am
sad eyes - still defined
torn and twisted easily denied
whisper to me the dreams you let go
i really can't remember the faith i know
everything is beyond the unknown
slipping away from destination
disillusioned and arranged at cost
i've payed my way here
why am i lost?