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My Left is Underhanded, Act 1
Published 01.10. 2012
Listen up soldiers, TROOPS, because I only tell you my truth once. Today I am going to teach you how to think with b0th hands!
Left hand? Right?
Soldier said? Left-right-left?
I am Daniel Shadow Loveless. Ambidextrous is my genius. I can move anything within my grasp, for power is in these broken hands to think before thought. Give a toss of a stone at us if fear you can overcome. I reach and try but fail to catch stone with right hand. However, I deflect stone. You test my ambidexterity and I will fail your test for I am left handed. Here is my truth.
Father long ago was man. Was flawed man. I child, left handed as he was. He afraid he was evil man for his selfishness. He steals food from our mouths to moth around the flame again. I, flawed man, not as bad as him, but self-indulgent. In response to my sometimes frailty, I show power to change I have
And become right man
Become
Right handed man
Father all his life fight with right side, wrong mind, right intention. I love you enough to say I have saved lives with only the speed of my mind immediately awakening my right hand and left hand I hold into the cold fire. Hold it still. In an instant one reflex move can save lives. Today I lived a life you will never know or could not possibly imagine what I accomplished with humility and humor. Do you see one word human? You Man? HUMility means HUM or HUMOR ME. Astonished new friend is, instant thunder. THIS MAN NO FEAR HAS. FLAMES HAVE EATEN HIM. WICKED HEART TAKEN. No heart in the calm I have, for dragon is battle arrayed angel I am, poor scared whole scarlet read people you are who lie with every look.
If rage was called for, I would rage. Now I calm. I just humble myself. I am afraid of the evil will that has ruled this day for you. So you hate and fear me, your brother. Today with my hands will I rule you, not my heart, or have the strength to walk. I, Exilis.
I live all day in the moment
The passion
Do you? Or walk like others do?
Do
I do not
I say I love you or I hate you
I fucking
Mean
It
But only when I say the former
We all know, if you don’t love someone
You don’t care enough to
Feel
Cheated or betrayed by their
Departure
I had to walk away
I mean man of
LOVE
I love to be mean
I mean because I funny
I find out why you afraid of
Me
Because I fear you so much
Afraid to be
Near your
Touch
Of
Evil
Intent
Make love with word war. I tell you I am here to be loved from afar. I am fuck but never fuck up again. Yes I will, but small foibles only. I am a fuck stupid. I man, make mistakes. I pay for mistakes with silent I am. Leave you alone to hate me, not embrace me. Most people just forget the stupid times anyways. I murder your love for me, or I try and you get me back by loving me better than before. Extinctionize hate stupid fear animals. Don’t be afraid.
Walk
Away
Or
Love
And
Stay
I will show you the fire of the love god if you come too close to me. You will hear him hiss with serpent’s nebula. I walk the stars before you were born child. I was alive and aware.
Love me nots, she sends
Little hearts
And hears not the
River of love, I am
So before next say to me love is a little red heart on your sleeve phone, keep between sheets instead of me to see
Said Nsstradamus
I KNOW! And was vague
Broad, shallow thunder bolt he had
I ASK!
Thunder that is answered in kind, by thunder, is mine
You come to me, if need love to sleep. Love is here. I have a strong home and my bed is well built not with my hands but the care I took in selecting the right mattress for my back.
So beautiful with
Pale
Emotions
That are
Cold
Compared to this
Discipline, friends
There is more than the culture of contempt
Or just stay there. Alone. Go to that evil man. God's lunatic, I am. Walking alone with Shadow.
My Left is Underhanded, Act 1
By
Daniel Christensen
Writing as
Daniel Shadow Loveless
Copyright © 2012 by Daniel Christensen. All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, distributed, or transmitted in any form or by any means, including photocopying, recording, or other electronic or mechanical methods, without the prior written permission of the publisher.
Listen up soldiers, TROOPS, because I only tell you my truth once. Today I am going to teach you how to think with b0th hands!
Left hand? Right?
Soldier said? Left-right-left?
I am Daniel Shadow Loveless. Ambidextrous is my genius. I can move anything within my grasp, for power is in these broken hands to think before thought. Give a toss of a stone at us if fear you can overcome. I reach and try but fail to catch stone with right hand. However, I deflect stone. You test my ambidexterity and I will fail your test for I am left handed. Here is my truth.
Father long ago was man. Was flawed man. I child, left handed as he was. He afraid he was evil man for his selfishness. He steals food from our mouths to moth around the flame again. I, flawed man, not as bad as him, but self-indulgent. In response to my sometimes frailty, I show power to change I have
And become right man
Become
Right handed man
Father all his life fight with right side, wrong mind, right intention. I love you enough to say I have saved lives with only the speed of my mind immediately awakening my right hand and left hand I hold into the cold fire. Hold it still. In an instant one reflex move can save lives. Today I lived a life you will never know or could not possibly imagine what I accomplished with humility and humor. Do you see one word human? You Man? HUMility means HUM or HUMOR ME. Astonished new friend is, instant thunder. THIS MAN NO FEAR HAS. FLAMES HAVE EATEN HIM. WICKED HEART TAKEN. No heart in the calm I have, for dragon is battle arrayed angel I am, poor scared whole scarlet read people you are who lie with every look.
If rage was called for, I would rage. Now I calm. I just humble myself. I am afraid of the evil will that has ruled this day for you. So you hate and fear me, your brother. Today with my hands will I rule you, not my heart, or have the strength to walk. I, Exilis.
I live all day in the moment
The passion
Do you? Or walk like others do?
Do
I do not
I say I love you or I hate you
I fucking
Mean
It
But only when I say the former
We all know, if you don’t love someone
You don’t care enough to
Feel
Cheated or betrayed by their
Departure
I had to walk away
I mean man of
LOVE
I love to be mean
I mean because I funny
I find out why you afraid of
Me
Because I fear you so much
Afraid to be
Near your
Touch
Of
Evil
Intent
Make love with word war. I tell you I am here to be loved from afar. I am fuck but never fuck up again. Yes I will, but small foibles only. I am a fuck stupid. I man, make mistakes. I pay for mistakes with silent I am. Leave you alone to hate me, not embrace me. Most people just forget the stupid times anyways. I murder your love for me, or I try and you get me back by loving me better than before. Extinctionize hate stupid fear animals. Don’t be afraid.
Walk
Away
Or
Love
And
Stay
I will show you the fire of the love god if you come too close to me. You will hear him hiss with serpent’s nebula. I walk the stars before you were born child. I was alive and aware.
Love me nots, she sends
Little hearts
And hears not the
River of love, I am
So before next say to me love is a little red heart on your sleeve phone, keep between sheets instead of me to see
Said Nsstradamus
I KNOW! And was vague
Broad, shallow thunder bolt he had
I ASK!
Thunder that is answered in kind, by thunder, is mine
You come to me, if need love to sleep. Love is here. I have a strong home and my bed is well built not with my hands but the care I took in selecting the right mattress for my back.
So beautiful with
Pale
Emotions
That are
Cold
Compared to this
Discipline, friends
There is more than the culture of contempt
Or just stay there. Alone. Go to that evil man. God's lunatic, I am. Walking alone with Shadow.
My Left is Underhanded, Act 1
By
Daniel Christensen
Writing as
Daniel Shadow Loveless
Copyright © 2012 by Daniel Christensen. All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, distributed, or transmitted in any form or by any means, including photocopying, recording, or other electronic or mechanical methods, without the prior written permission of the publisher.
Published 8th Aug 2016
| Edited 23rd Aug 2016
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8th Aug 2016 2:33pm
What an amazing twist of thought this is. Mind boggling
to say the least. I couldn't help but laugh at this:
You come to me, if need love to sleep. Love is here. I have a strong home and my bed is well built not with my hands but the care I took in selecting the right mattress for my back.
The entire thing is paradoxical and brilliantly contrasted to highlight the 'Underhanded' theme -
like everything mentioned has an underhanded replay, i.e. - the mattress.
Are you channeling any of this?
to say the least. I couldn't help but laugh at this:
You come to me, if need love to sleep. Love is here. I have a strong home and my bed is well built not with my hands but the care I took in selecting the right mattress for my back.
The entire thing is paradoxical and brilliantly contrasted to highlight the 'Underhanded' theme -
like everything mentioned has an underhanded replay, i.e. - the mattress.
Are you channeling any of this?
8th Aug 2016 3:30pm
Hey :) I wrote this years ago. I was in a state of greater turmoil back then. The subtle underplay that you detected is intentional, the humor is as well. Your insights are most penetrating, bright lady. I am not surprised. I was reordering my manuscripts yesterday, making sure everything is up to date in the 3 places that I have my works saved, and I decided it would be fun to publish the 4 acts of this short series here. My works are autobiographical in nature. I hardly write fictions. Often they are my gathered reflections, as you have seen. As for channeling, I always feel as if my inspiration comes when the proper alignment occurs and the insights crystallize and are bestowed upon me. I will wait until properly inspired, never putting pen to page or fingers to keys otherwise.
10th Aug 2016 6:32pm
So much to unpack here...
Whew..
Cerebral stimulus to the nth power..
Underhanded?...
God's Lunatic under-MINDED by Shadow?..
Sigh..
To be continued...this comment
My pudgy fingers not good for lengthy typing on phone...
Waiting for new power cord for laptop..
Whew..
Cerebral stimulus to the nth power..
Underhanded?...
God's Lunatic under-MINDED by Shadow?..
Sigh..
To be continued...this comment
My pudgy fingers not good for lengthy typing on phone...
Waiting for new power cord for laptop..
10th Aug 2016 11:29pm
Anonymous
12th Aug 2016 4:00am
Wow DC.....this is awesome......luv how your format changes thru out......your words leave my mind thinking all sorts of stuff......luv writes that challenge the mind......luvin this write......purple luv & hugs xo :)
14th Aug 2016 8:06am
Thank you Flower I always hope that my compositions will inspire critical thinking and depth of feeling. It gives me a sense of accomplishment that I have succeeded in this endeavor with you. Namaste. :)
12th Aug 2016 5:42pm
I believe you've created an
vitaling sign within me...
shall be back.. soon and soon.
have to slow down my pulse
a little Lol
-Howlings
vitaling sign within me...
shall be back.. soon and soon.
have to slow down my pulse
a little Lol
-Howlings
Howlings it is such a pleasure to interact with you. You are an artist without peer to me. To inspire thought or feeling in you is a noteworthy accomplishment. These works are a bit unconventional because I had recently undergone a kind of ordeal and transformation a little more than a month before writing them. I wrote all 4 acts of this series on the same day, but I am staggering them a few days or so apart as I release them here. I hope you will find each of them interesting. Namaste.
14th Aug 2016 1:30am
ok..back in biz..
i love the jaggedness of this vibe
just letting the words steamroll out
as a roller coaster ride
of convictions and conflictions
with every verse DEEP with meaning
..
this feels like one of those
MUST writes..
to be reviewed at later dates
as perhaps a contrasts to
your more recent philosophies
and your your emotional state of being'
..
question bro..
how would you convey this now?
what are your thoughts
on this vibe looking back?..
this evokes so much conversation
this is tremendous in scope Daniel
unveiling the panorama
of a most extravagant soul
i love the jaggedness of this vibe
just letting the words steamroll out
as a roller coaster ride
of convictions and conflictions
with every verse DEEP with meaning
..
this feels like one of those
MUST writes..
to be reviewed at later dates
as perhaps a contrasts to
your more recent philosophies
and your your emotional state of being'
..
question bro..
how would you convey this now?
what are your thoughts
on this vibe looking back?..
this evokes so much conversation
this is tremendous in scope Daniel
unveiling the panorama
of a most extravagant soul
Your thoughts are cogent. It did just steam roll out of me. There is a confliction with my current philosophy here. I have been studying Buddhism for almost a year. Through it, I have found a measure of peace that I did not possess back when I wrote under the name Loveless. I switched to The Fire Elemental when I felt that love had become my primary motivator, instead of the desire to be revenged for what I suffered.
It is paradoxical with convictions and conflictions like you and Ahavati have said. That is the intent of the series. The confusion of which hand is dominant as a metaphor for the confusion that exists in my soul. Compassion and spite. Love and hate. I imagine that this conflict is waged in every heart and is ever present.
You ask a penetrating question here my friend. How do I feel about it now, looking back. My writing is always provocative. It comes from an unquenchable desire to express myself unabashedly and to forge connections with others. The vibe can be aggressive, it can be challenging, but it can also express vulnerability and humility. I feel my works run the gamut of expression. I polarize people wherever I spit or post. How someone receives it tells me something about that person. Much like a rorschach test. People are mirrors of ourselves, to us. In that fashion, my writing style has not changed so much as it has evolved, as my awareness has evolved. It is interesting to look back over my works across a timeline and see the evolution of myself as a person and an artist.
Conversation is welcomed. That is part of why I post. I thank you for putting so much consideration into the work. Namaste.
It is paradoxical with convictions and conflictions like you and Ahavati have said. That is the intent of the series. The confusion of which hand is dominant as a metaphor for the confusion that exists in my soul. Compassion and spite. Love and hate. I imagine that this conflict is waged in every heart and is ever present.
You ask a penetrating question here my friend. How do I feel about it now, looking back. My writing is always provocative. It comes from an unquenchable desire to express myself unabashedly and to forge connections with others. The vibe can be aggressive, it can be challenging, but it can also express vulnerability and humility. I feel my works run the gamut of expression. I polarize people wherever I spit or post. How someone receives it tells me something about that person. Much like a rorschach test. People are mirrors of ourselves, to us. In that fashion, my writing style has not changed so much as it has evolved, as my awareness has evolved. It is interesting to look back over my works across a timeline and see the evolution of myself as a person and an artist.
Conversation is welcomed. That is part of why I post. I thank you for putting so much consideration into the work. Namaste.
24th Mar 2023 8:27pm
24th Mar 2023 9:56pm
Hi and thank you. This is an older piece but I imported it from my book in publication because I felt it was a good representation of my writing and life journey at the time. 🙏🏻
