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brenda
*
my fierceness fading
retreating into the shadows
no longer needed armor
that has grown rusty
from lack of use
I used to bite, slash and kill with my words
wondering where Crimsin has wandered off too
feeling naked without her, vulnerable
the gentle nature of brenda frightening
two sides of the same coin
though very different beasts
my alter ego my protector
gave me courage when I had none
*
you will find me in the mists
settling over the calm waters
dancing, swirling, cascading
spreading wings that are thick with dust
not being used for some years
taking flight into the ether
kissing your souls tenderly
as I descend atop mountains
the forests my home
*
~the thug side of me
left in the streets
a hardened face no longer needed~
*
yielding to the powers that be
knowing what is needed
I offer you succor
you've let me drink from your golden chalice
sweet wine without any dregs
walk with me by the still waters
let your mind have peace on this morn
as our beings lie on the mossy beds of contentment
taking shelter amongst the ferns of self acceptance
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Re. brenda
4th Aug 2016 11:25am
What a lovely testament to wake up to. Beautiful coming into yourself, Brenda. Thank you for sharing with us. xo
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4th Aug 2016 11:33am
Re. brenda
4th Aug 2016 12:01pm
My ladyloves.. .
you are so beautiful,
I mean you lithograph
with the lining of your
heart and perfect your
imperfections with soul..
And I..well I'm a candle
for things which makes
me think, feel and gasp..
no matter sujet matter
Squeezes to you
-Howlings
you are so beautiful,
I mean you lithograph
with the lining of your
heart and perfect your
imperfections with soul..
And I..well I'm a candle
for things which makes
me think, feel and gasp..
no matter sujet matter
Squeezes to you
-Howlings
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Re: Re. brenda
4th Aug 2016 12:16pm
Re. brenda
Anonymous
4th Aug 2016 12:42pm
Such a vulnerable write.
I love your ink of truth and self reflect. So much strength in your words, and beauty within your soul.
I truly adore your work. 💓
I love your ink of truth and self reflect. So much strength in your words, and beauty within your soul.
I truly adore your work. 💓

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Re: Re. brenda
4th Aug 2016 1:05pm
Re. brenda
4th Aug 2016 1:29pm
Dear gentle Brenda... today I broke my crutch... snapped clean in two (really did happen) and although I've been staggering around it has shown me just how much (too much) I've come to depend on it.
Sometimes the things we think we need so much just aren't as important as we thought...
Sometimes the things we think we need so much just aren't as important as we thought...
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Re: Re. brenda
4th Aug 2016 1:43pm
Re. brenda
4th Aug 2016 1:49pm
Ahh, this made me cry! So beautiful! You're so beautiful. So happy to see you spread your wings. The dust will fall away quickly as you use them. Lovely! :)
Willow
Willow
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Re: Re. brenda
4th Aug 2016 2:13pm
thank you beautiful Willow for embracing you touched my heart deeply with the love you've shown me..
love Brenda
love Brenda
Re. brenda
4th Aug 2016 2:06pm
I always felt that I had many alter egos. Now i just kind of feel like all of them are just crazy me ^^
Awesome read :-)
Awesome read :-)
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Re: Re. brenda
4th Aug 2016 2:14pm
Re. brenda
4th Aug 2016 4:09pm
What a beautiful clip on you tube.
It was you breaking away from
Crimsin.That is, I think a good
thing, but it might be a good idea
to keep her within arms reach.
You may need her again.
It was you breaking away from
Crimsin.That is, I think a good
thing, but it might be a good idea
to keep her within arms reach.
You may need her again.
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Re: Re. brenda
4th Aug 2016 5:17pm
thank you Jerry aye Crim will stay and step up when needed I'm sure ;)
love Brenda
love Brenda
Re. brenda
"walk with me by the still waters
let your mind have peace on this morn
as our beings lie on the mossy beds of contentment
taking shelter amongst the ferns of self acceptance" > lost for words...so vulnerable... so beautiful...
And then came the music... it intensifies the poem... love this piece, Crim!!!
Love, Duende
let your mind have peace on this morn
as our beings lie on the mossy beds of contentment
taking shelter amongst the ferns of self acceptance" > lost for words...so vulnerable... so beautiful...
And then came the music... it intensifies the poem... love this piece, Crim!!!
Love, Duende
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Re: Re. brenda
4th Aug 2016 5:18pm
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4th Aug 2016 4:45pm
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Re: Re. brenda
4th Aug 2016 5:19pm
thank you lovely Amelia it's the letting go of the hardness that's tough..
love Crim
love Crim
Re. brenda
4th Aug 2016 5:56pm
This piece truly tugged on my emotions.... Our alter ego is there to protect that pure, vulnerable girl deep within because while we show hard and emotion-less, she that hidden girl is actually very sensitive, soft and has strong emotions but it isn't safe.... When she the alter ego has taken over so long the hidden us seems further and further from our grasp but sometimes you have to take time to reconnect with self... You my precious lady are what I consider myself to be a *butterfly* and right now you are transforming reaching your new beginning where the different sides of you come together to find how you can peacefully coexist and find peace... Hugs... Taking this write with me...
~BSavvy
~BSavvy
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Re: Re. brenda
5th Aug 2016 12:33pm
thank you dearest one for such a deep and enlightening comment.. I let my alter ego run things so long I lost touch with my inner girl.. I'm tearing up because she has been alone far too long in the shadows I'd forgotten her voice..
love Brenda
love Brenda
Re. brenda
4th Aug 2016 6:06pm
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5th Aug 2016 12:34pm
Re. brenda
4th Aug 2016 11:12pm
I'm so glad to see your Brenda side this time, without the fierce alter ego. I don't think Crim will wander far and will be ready in stronger form when you need her, if ever again She'll be even more courageous and lovely knowing the lady contained within. Thank you for such personal lines. They're an honor to read...
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Re: Re. brenda
5th Aug 2016 12:36pm
aw thank you Sir Crow I'm frightened by such vulnerability though very encouraged that you would embrace this side of me as you have my darkness..
love Crim
love Crim
Re. brenda
Anonymous
5th Aug 2016 2:23am
Brenda.. i loved this write.. i've told you several times, i love your tender side.. As much as "Crimsin" kicks ass, and can write lovely dark saga's.. Brenda, seems to flawlessly write powerful stories of hope, and survival.. but in the end, they're both parts of you.. equally beautiful, and important.. i know it's hard to get use too.. but i once had an alter-ego as well.. then one day, i put him to rest.. he's still in my soul, but he isn't the dominant personality anymore.. anyways into my list this brilliant ink goes.. i love you!!..
Dave
Dave

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Re: Re. brenda
5th Aug 2016 12:38pm
thank you Dave for such a wise loving comment thank you for embracing all me in all my diverse phases and for your deep understanding.. love you my dear friend..
xo Brenda
xo Brenda
Re. brenda
Anonymous
5th Aug 2016 3:39am
My Beautiful Brenda...and you are just that lovely one....always Beautiful to me...you have shown me on more than one occasion amounts of love so vast it's immeasurable...Crimsin is powerful and one not to fuck with but so is Brenda, just in two different ways...just as you have needed her, I have as well and she has been there for me, however, never more, nor less than I have needed Brenda. If she is needed, she will resurface and if she chooses to be aloof, know that what remains is just as sacred...
I love you so very much...eternally...
xoxoxoxoxox Taryn
I love you so very much...eternally...
xoxoxoxoxox Taryn

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Re: Re. brenda
5th Aug 2016 12:40pm
thank you beautiful one for the great love you've shown me.. my wild dark side and the more tender side in equal measure.. I love you so much lovely lady :)
xo Brenda
xo Brenda
Re. brenda
5th Aug 2016 9:14pm
thankfully we change - I'd hate to be who I was now - though I'm glad for much I was
And you being Crim has given you the balance and confidence to be Brenda
A great write that brings us close to you to in feeling how you feel wonder at how we feel to
And you being Crim has given you the balance and confidence to be Brenda
A great write that brings us close to you to in feeling how you feel wonder at how we feel to
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Re: Re. brenda
6th Aug 2016 1:58am
thank you Whale though I'm not feeling too confident yet time will tell I suppose..
love Brenda
love Brenda
Re. brenda
6th Aug 2016 4:18am
Dearest Brenda,
I love the honesty that is presented in this write. To offer such a vulnerable view of yourself takes courage in itself.
I think Brenda is beautiful and you shall be fine standing on your own.
The flip side is....
That whenever Brenda is in need...
Crimsin shall arrive on fiery steed.
Sword wielded in hand
to slay any foe...
No length that she is
not willing to go.
This my dearest Brenda
you already know.
Brenda and Crimsin
Two sides of a beautiful
remarkable coin.
Loves
And big hugs
Keith
I love the honesty that is presented in this write. To offer such a vulnerable view of yourself takes courage in itself.
I think Brenda is beautiful and you shall be fine standing on your own.
The flip side is....
That whenever Brenda is in need...
Crimsin shall arrive on fiery steed.
Sword wielded in hand
to slay any foe...
No length that she is
not willing to go.
This my dearest Brenda
you already know.
Brenda and Crimsin
Two sides of a beautiful
remarkable coin.
Loves
And big hugs
Keith
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Re: Re. brenda
6th Aug 2016 5:30pm
Re. brenda
6th Aug 2016 5:17am
easy to remove your cloak of shadows
in the brightness of the forest,
pleasant respite from the streets...
in the brightness of the forest,
pleasant respite from the streets...
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6th Aug 2016 5:31pm
Re. brenda
7th Aug 2016 3:37am
make no mistake; I will be with you all the way supporting everything you do, in any way I can - change can be scary but you have my unwavering support - I am Fascinated to see what comes next - I am equally sure that a poet such as you will still be just as great :-)
Love and ehugs Brenda :-)
Love and ehugs Brenda :-)
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Re: Re. brenda
8th Aug 2016 2:51am
thank you David for your loving support yes change is scary it's to easy to fall back on what I know but unfortunately that has left me heartache.. good for poetry at times bad for the soul..
love Brenda
love Brenda
Re. brenda
7th Aug 2016 5:17am
Precious Brenda/Crim.......regardless of who you might be today or tomorrow.......you are luved....admired and sacred to many.......including me......I will take you as you are no matter who you might be or not be day to day......cause your awesome soul of luv always shines thru......luv the strength you show here......beautiful write......RL for me......purple luv & hugs xo :)
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Re: Re. brenda
8th Aug 2016 2:52am
lovely Flower thank you for loving all of the odd sides of me dear lady :)
love Brenda
love Brenda
Re. brenda
Anonymous
- Edited 11th Aug 2016 8:00am
11th Aug 2016 7:47am
If you have not heard your comments, beautiful B.its alright to step out of the dark and into the light for as long as you need. Reading your comments is proof ,you are an excellent writer. With all the support of your peers, you tapped into the kindness you freely give to every one else.
Love, Trisha
Enya:Boadicea I was calmed finally B
Love, Trisha
Enya:Boadicea I was calmed finally B

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Re: Re. brenda
11th Aug 2016 9:09am
thank you graciously dearest Trisha for the kindness you've bestowed upon me..
so happy you have peace now lovely one..
xo Brenda
so happy you have peace now lovely one..
xo Brenda