iDos! (Revise)

Hello there, laying so seductive.
Get inside me, your self destructive.

Your love alone has killed the pain.
Giving me hope and numb the strain.
The way I feel with you can heal.
Honestly I never want it to be real.

Punching holes the size of dimes inside my mind for every time I crossed the line

The tick tock from the clock won't stop
Melodic knock that swings and rocks.

You never showed me love at all.
But when your around I trip and fall.
My face is numb from all the pain.
I hate the way you never stay.
Mirage that's faint and fades away.
Make me feel, it's time we play.

I set my limit when I can't stand
Dropping, drinking, sinking sands
It's safe, I swear, it was a plant
From this I'll grow to be a man

Coming down I get depressed.
The price I pay to write my fears.
It helps me pass what I've repressed.
Like films that choke with every reel.
I'm an addict to my pain I guess.

For every shot that kills the thoughts I've lost the will to stop.
The cost was everyone I've lost trying to reach the rotting top.

Mindless, brainless, directed headless.
Careless, wreckless, the walking dead mess.

But when we start to settle down
I feel like I'm a fucking clown
The jokes on me without a doubt.

But as I drift to sane and sound and sure enough the pains abound.
I won't lie though,
I love it when you come around but glad you fade away like sound.
Withdrawn,
the screams of pain are faint.
With every echo we hear your name, every victim branded "SHAME".