Am I Too Late

As I sit here inside my palace of darkness
Looking out into the world I helped create
I see the everyday tasks to be done
And I watch as the weak start to deviate

They are who I go and feed upon
The feeble minded are easily bought
I remember the schemes I put it to play
That turned lives to shit and minds to rot

Like a hungry vampire I overindulged
Sucking the very lifeforce out of so many
My greed and addiction had an all time high
Without remorse I took every last penny

Now with all I need protected by this palace
Why is it I feel the most guilt
Is this why I worked so hard
To be lonely in the fortress I built

Emotionally I'm a fucking mess
Can't decide what's right or wrong
Don't seem to care about anything
And it's been this way for too long

So I sit alone perched among the grey
Evil is the backdrop I choose here
Watching their suffering without empathy
Thinking about hiding my only fear

Coming down is seemingly impossible
I only want to until it starts to hurt
Then its right back to all the darkness
To my palace of sin atop my empire of dirt

Restarting the vicious cycle all over again
Reminding me that my hell is still out there
I keep repeating the same steps as before
Wondering if my soul is just beyond repair