How

How can you say you've loved me for years
When you can't stand to see me happy
I'm actually happy for once ive gone through alot this year I had a baby then didn't have one anymore I've stayed in my room without leaving for countless weeks and I didn't eat for countless weeks there were days that I counted my pills and added up the dose to see if it could kill me I didn't want to live I still don't but you can't say you live me if you only love me when I'm sad and want to die you can love me while I'm happy with someone else because for once I don't want to die