I Can't Escape

I was Hospitalized on the day I Lost Control
those words I wrote I thought would be my last
but every time I come right back
Can we escape?
This never ending Nightmare, this shit we call life?
well I'll let you know, we're all doomed.
I've lost control
I've sold my soul
Can you help me?
These thoughts are back
Can I escape?
Honestly I don't think I can
every time the ray of light shines
to great me with it's warm pressence
I kill it
I dismember it
I make it so there is nothing left
Why do I do the things I do?
I honestly dont know
That November Lover gone
Those Childhood Friends have left
all that remains is a one way ticket to Death
so I ask you now, one last time
Can You Escape?