All I Have

my insides still ache
n
my heart may break
I wake up an I don't feel so great now what am I supposed to do when I feel this way there's escape
I can't keep running away...


I feel like my insides are fading away
I can't talk cuz I keep pushing the other way an every time I feel like I can make it I fall back
so point me to the right way
n
tell me its gonna be OK  
is there anyone out there that can here me!
I've been fighting this war for far too long an I can't make it on my own there's gotta be another way
but i'm afraid I might drowned  every-time I turn for help I get pushed the other away
now I've done my best on my own but yet I still feel so alone an if you look at me you'll see i'm still froze
this pain ain't going away it's becoming more than real it's all i feel
I can't fight this alone, please don't make me fight this alone!
its got me choking on my own words because every time I speak it's  not what I really wanna say so if I be real will you turn your back just like everyone else an walk away
now I hate this feeling it's got me sick I feel like i'm in quick sand with no escape
an now that's where my heart breaks, I don't wanna live the rest of my life this way
so if I put out my hand will you pull me back up





I  got tears coming down as i'm writing this
an I run the other way cause I can't stand to let anyone see me when i'm like this
it's like no one could understand where I stand or how emotionally broke I am
watched my mom an brother be physically abused an I knew my mom used
an yes my sister was sometimes bruised up until she moved
I was scared and confused, but I put up a fuze an I let it all get used
now it's completely worn out an it could blow at the shortest spark
I walk around so boldly but when i'm alone i'm down on both knees
I just really need someone to hold me
now do you know what it's like to feel like there's no more light
please i'm trying to tell you how I feel this is me reaching out for help an I don't know how else to ask so please believe me when I say i'm out of ideas
emotionally i'm scared
to let anyone else  in
if you take a hit at me I can’t guarantee you i'll even feel
so take your hardest hit maybe it will help me to be able to heal
an maybe feel a little bit less of a mess
now there's not much time left
i'm drowning an i'm up to my neck
my fists are clenched, my eyes are tired an  my times about expired
I feel like i'm gonna pass out maybe black out I can't take much more of this
when every time I look in the mirror I feel like i'm already dead now take this beat
an go ahead an tell me its weak
this is my last cry for help please can anyone hear me
this is a note called dear me you gotta hear
my voice is about gone i'm reaching up please grab me