Because i can

To my Husband

Why did you hurt me?

When you promised to love me!

What did I do to deserve the pain you gave me?

You promised to honor and cherish me!

Every punch, kick was like a stone shattering glass

Chips of my love for you, falling away with every strike!

You said you did it "because you could"

Why didn't we have a normal relationship?

Rather than you controlling me all the time

I gave you my all, my everything

In return you would slap, punch, kick, rape or threaten to kill me!

Why? I asked you?

You said "Because you Could"

You would say "It was all my fault"

I annoyed you therefore I should take the consequences

Why did you do that

"Because you could"

You held a knife to my throat and laugh

Why? Because you could

You would rape and bugger me

Why? Because you could

You would call me a whore, b*tch, liar and fat

This isn't love!

Why did I stay so long?

Because you controlled my every move

I fled from you in fear of you,

I thought I couldn't cope without you

I was so wrong but to start with

I had no home, no where to go, no money, no clothes, nothing

All I had was 5 cigarettes and the clothes on my back

I was scared of you and didn't know what to do

Then I met people who helped me greatly

They believed in me and gave me some confidence

I can't thank them enough for my giving me life again

Women's Aid, Lawyer, Police, Housing Support

lots of other kind people

I now have a future to look forward too

I now have a home, a little money, some clothes and HOPE

A better life, a life without fear or intimidation

No more walking on egg shells

Or awaiting the next beating or rape

I will never forget you but all for the wrong reasons

you left me with scars – emotional and physical

I now have complete control of my life

I can only thank the people who have helped me

Without them I would not be here

I would be six feet under

I WILL NEVER BE WITH YOU AGAIN! WHY BECAUSE I HAVE THE POWER NOW!  
WHY?
BECAUSE I CAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!