Last Breath That Never Comes

One last breath.
On the verge of death
Nothing went right.
Everything turned out so wrong.
I can't forgive, I won't forget.
I give up, I'm through with the fight.
It taunts me as I'm laying here.
Wishing for me to show unspoken fear.
Waiting in the shadows, letting me suffer.
I gave everything I had to give.
Yet I ended up in tears, in my puddle of blood again.
Please.
Escape my lips, fade into the night sky.
Why don't I just die?
Why am I being denied?
I beg of you, agony..
Let me go. Tired of suffering.
Sick of the pain.
Disgusted with life.
Not letting go of me.
If only I could tear myself apart.
One last breath to breathe.
It never passes my lips.
I've already hit the floor. So why
Am I not infront of Heaven's doors?
Perhaps theres a reason I don't see..
A reason that I can't leave?
Is there a reason, some weird reason...
Why I never die?