"They All Know"

They know,
They all know!!
Dear Mom,
You should be headless by this point!
FUCK YOU AND YOUR DIRTY FAMILY!
You fucking bitch!!
I thought you were here for me,
You're just a fucking snitch.
A fucking fish mouth bitch!
I got a murder hit on my head.
This may be my last time typing,  
Until I'm finally dead.
I'm attempting to commit suicide,
Complementing the possible ways to end myself.
I am many things in this life,
I'm an alcoholic, drug addict, darkness fiend,
But when It comes to childhood abuse,
There's no way anybody can lie.
I've done chilled with those I thought had my back,
My own step brother.
Now I'm here 10 years later packing a cold steel strap!
Why am I so angry?!
'Cause you motherfuckers don't protect your own!
About to lose my brother/son to the state of California.
About to lose to sanity.
Close to losing my grip on reality!
Send me to an asylum before I murder someone.
Before I murder myself!
My life long secret misery, they all know now.
I have no family at this point,
Truth be told I never had 'em to begin with.
Growing up in a broken home,
Filled with alcohol, drugs, depression and tears.
These voices in my head have bad intentions!
"Fucking kill 'em!"
"Nobody will ever know!"
About to give in to my suicidal fantasies.
This pain throbs in my head like a heart beat.
Haven't slept for days,
I'm going insane with what I'm seeing.
Dark figures whispering in my ears,
"Kill them before the word spreads!"
I yell back, "NO!!"
"You'll be free from your misery and sorrow"
Trembling at the thought of taking everybody's soul.
They ask me, "Why you talking like that you stupid fuck?!"
I replied with, "You would be the same if this happened to you!"
It won't be long before they find me,
In the bathtub with cold blood.
They all know.
It's time for me to go, now.