Lies, ignorance, hate

At first you didn't see me as a child
I'm not sure what you saw in me
You lied about your age
And I believed
You started to change me little by little
Into something I guess you needed
And my young ignorant mind let you
Years passed I turned of age and moved in with you
Only to discover more lies you told
But I chose to stay
I told myself I was fat and no one else would want me
More years passed
And promises were broken
You will never give me your all
So why should I any more
I'm changing and hopefully for the better
You bring the worst out in me and I hate myself for letting you change me
for letting you get in my head
Most of all for letting myself believe you love me
If you truly loved me you wouldn't have lied
you wouldn't have changed me
and you wouldn't have been with me when I was a child knowing you were old enough to have fathered me
Now you treat me like a child even though I'm a grown woman
You act like I can't think for myself
I've had enough
And when I leave
I want nothing from you besides for you to take care of our kid like she deserves