The break down Part two

Walking back and forth feeling the pain when it was raining hard i went it bare ass letting the cold water hit my whole body because that's how i feel when you dropped that bombshell on me, MY biggest fear was losing you but to somebody else that shit hurts like sitting down on spikes real hard that is the way my heart feels, i hate the part you fell in love somebody else except me it still play in my HEART like our songs don't you remember of course you do but you will soon forget when them fuck boys get to you and start doing shit for them, the other night i was threatened to leave but you still have not told me why you want me to stay you will always be MY baby no matter what its just feel so weird somebody else calling you baby that sucks, I'm so pissed at you that you waited the whole week to tell me that this guy from high want to get with you, i hate this shit right now its tearing me apart every time i want to spread my wings at you it seems like you always shut me out, do you can call me the dark angel with a fucked up heart tell me something why every Fuck BOY get the most love and i get the leftovers like this is a fucking Passover, laying down on the bed waiting on you trying to text you something SWEET but damn he probably doing something even sweeter to you, FUCK, baby i wish this never happen, I wish my heart didn't FALL for you, before this happen you was the sweetest person i ever knew NEVER thought this will but hey you tricked me, damn baby what can i do, all i want is just to be with you but damn Can't do that because your feelings is tied with someone else and that is the worse, SORRY for making it seems like I'm hating BUT part of me just don't want you to fall for the wrong one, yes i still care wake up and smells the coffee because I'm not going anywhere, I'm just upset right now because i lost you and you was the best girlfriend that i had, its a damn shame that some of these guys doing girls wrong BUT look at me trying to make a difference i need to stop being nice and just say my ass at home, BUT that is not me i just want you to love me harder than you ever love anybody else, well shots to the HEART I'll be wrong if i say fuck a female and just dog em plus some of them don't deserve a good man, all they want is somebody With money plus a car and so i called that friends with benefits, I don't know what to say i cried too much walking back and forth making my feet hurt, trying to hear some music to ease MY heart how I'm going to do that when its torn apart i don't understand why you left me in the dark i still love you regardless i will never give up on you, even though you put me through this shit I'm still there for you, for better or  for worse.