Plan

I am so fucking grateful
To have realized where I could go wrong
Before I do
And it's thanks to you
I was receptive to your insight
It stopped me dead in my tracks
Caused a point of reflection
Helped me decide how I want to act
That extra voice outside my head
Found through meaningful conversation
Allowed me to hear others that were my own
Quieting the noise of internal struggles
I'm excited at the possibility
That I could correct my actions
And direct them where they should go
I think too much, I know
But now I'm breathing life into chance
And finding strength in what I've learned
And I believe each step
Can and will carry me forward
Sometimes it's hard to move toward unknown
Because unknown has rarely been kind to me
But I only fool myself when
Believing control is somehow less cruel
It just causes me to be unkind to myself
A lasting consequence, and for what?
I must try to remain aware that
The risks just might outweigh the benefit
So even if I can't fix this
I hold the lesson tight in my hands
And I won't let go now
That's one thing I'm sure of
It puts my mind at ease
To know I don't have to be sure of the rest
An important realization
Helps remove this complication
Gotta focus on the here and now
Not the what if's or what could be's
Appreciate each moment for what it is
And let them direct the outcome
I'm comforted by plans but I
Hope to find equal comfort in actions from all sides
Because trying to live in the future
Is just as detrimental as living in the past
Yes, you can cherish spaces in time
And you can think about where they can take you
But you can't know the end result until you see it through
And that's honestly what I plan to do