This Drive

This drive is all i know, passing by
Im a wonderer drifter head in the sky
Roads im on cracked and old,
smoke from the mills stories untold
Walk through Chicago where no one turns their  head
When they pass by the homeless so cold they look dead
This drive has me thinking of all ive lost
And why id ever think id gain anything without paying the cost
Reminds me of the coins ancestors placed on the eyes
of the ones they loved to cross over the tide
This drive has me thinking of peace i desire but have lacked for years
My heart is breaking without shedding tears
Withdraw once again into my shell
Walking through fire hurts like hell
But ive always had a one track mind
And having peace without letting go is something i cant find.
This drive for hours around my hometown
The one i screamed at once to let me out
Here i am driving remembering a life
Of a girl i once knew whose only desire was to be a wife
Made a wrong turn now where was i going
Just passed the fountain at Main square- id make a wish but its snowing
Just passed the house of my lifelong best friend
Memories upon memories shes there til the end
I can remember pounding on her window my face all red, tears like a river cried on her bed
Only now im older so i came through the door laid my head on her shoulder but couldnt cry anymore.
This drive is it, one final round
And i realize im not the girl, who belongs in this town