A Fully Functional, Responsible Adult

I am now a fully functional, responsible adult.
Or that's what they say.
But I don't even understand;
What does that mean?

I think I'm finally learning.
Let me break it down.
Listen well,
don't make my mistakes.

Full functional means not asking for help.
It means being made of pixie dust and unicorns,
because being fully functional means getting everything done.
Even when there aren't enough hours in the day.

Responsible means getting a job,
going to class every day, and never be late,
eating healthy - which means spending plenty of time cooking,
never forgetting to take my meds.

A fully functional, responsible adult. That's what I'm supposed to be.
Get a job, but don't ask for a ride home to get to class.
Go to class, but don't ask for help understanding the material.
Be on time every time.

No time for mental health
except for the meds.
No time to rest or relax,
no time to enjoy.

Someone, please help.
I don't want to be this 'fully functional, responsible adult'.
I want time to take care of myself.
Is that selfish? I don't want to be selfish.

I just want to be ok before I try to take on the world.
If that's selfish, I'm sorry.
I just want to be ok ...