TRYED TO SAVE HIM

I strive to be who I'm not, just to make others proud.
 But I try to help only to get shut out.
It gets to a point that I don't know why I open my eyes.
But I do and I  slowly but surely  cry.

This rainfall could flood  a river
I hope to make others proud, when hope is only at a sliver
I wish I could help bring happy memories like I'm the giver

I just want others  to like me and not frown upon my existence
 And not like me because  at first I'm so distant

I was born for a reason ,But I love not knowing for what.
I love helping and making people happy
But get called  an attention and slut
Ignorant  people not knowing  what a word means   littealty  if you don't know keep your mouth  shut


Honestly  I just want to help,to save, to risk all that I am to help and reach the one person  that no one could
I want to be the person they come to , I wish they would
 I have been through  so much that they   should
But I am a ghost  and they slip to the darkness  that surrounds them do a point they feel so depressed  that a few rounds of a gun go off  into them then a silent but sure thud  a shot heard around the world

But I a person that stood by and tryed to help gets push away and the next thing you hear is a death of a innocent
 That fell from the hands of a bullying  citizen

But no one cares but he or she's closest  friends
Only we care for them in the end.

I could of helped  but he saw through me
He could not see
 That It was me ,  that could've set him free